So yesterday (Tuesday) my guy and I had a honesty hour. Told eachother everything. Like our fuck ups. We’ve fucked other people.. Like ugh. We’re even.. It’s just sad to say that we both still love eachother I don’t know what to say about that. It’s true though. After our long talk we decided to be more honest with one another; consequently, we lost trust through out our honest confessions. It’s safe to say that we both don’t want each other to fuck different people, obviously, but I have no idea what or where this goes after.. Like are we going to be finally be official after all this? Or are we just going to still be just dating? It’s been a year and a month.. What more do we want from eachother. I’ve kept him clean for so long.. For what? Him to sleep around and do other girls raw? -.- ugh I don’t know what the hell to do. I just want him. Only him. I am down to spend the rest of whatever’s left in my life with just him. He gets me and accepts me. What do I do? /:
The struggle of having Hpv is that you have to suffer not having unprotected sex. I know mine is not genital warts, and I’m positive I’m not even able to pass it on. I just want to make love to the guy who I love more than anyone in the world. I have so many emotions bottled up I just want to release them all on him. I have a passion in loving him. I just want to become one with my other half. Nobody can make me want something so much, and I truly know he has my heart. That skin to skin contact, that breath and heat in the air, that sweat and wetness everywhere -I want that;I need that. Just his touch alone makes me want to lay him down almost immediately. But I can’t, I was cursed before I even met my love. I am a rape victim that has been marked. I can’t enjoy such a bond with the man who I love all because a guy who was callous and forcing one night. I can’t even have a family without having the risk of passing something on to my future spouse. I wish I could go back and erase that night. I can’t, but my love accepts me for me, he just can’t make love to me peacefully because of risks. Ughhh I just want to tell him to leave me and enjoy life with someone else that’s virus free.. I do but can’t seem to build the confidence to say it. I know ill be broken in the end. Well I’m just rambling now.. Night
Genital Human Papillomavirus (HPV) is the most common sexually transmitted infection. Most people who are sexually active will contract HPV in their lifetime.
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I love the lack of gendered terms in this.
This guy has been my rock this past year. After learning about my virus in December of 2011, he has stuck between me since February 28th, 2012. He made sure I took my medicine and got checked up until my Hpv was gone. He would always take care of me but feeding me and hang out with my family and I. I had spent these past months with him and he was nothing but accepting to my infection. It didn’t matter to him. And through it all we both fell in love with each other. I just wish him the best of luck in life now. I want to say thank you to this very special person in my life.. I wouldn’t have gone through this year without you baba.. Ill miss you so much but you’ll find yourself in your journey, I believe in you. I love you so much and I hope one day we can finish what we’ve started. Take care, ill always just be a phone call, text, or a midnight drive away. Okay? I say to you a temporary goodbye. See you soon.
13 1/2 months since I’ve found out I had Hpv. Yeah I was uncomfortable with the situation for a good two months, but then I met someone who accepted me for me. Having someone there for you is the best feeling in the world. Yes I have my family who loves me but having that person stick by you through thick and thin is amazing. I’m thankful everyday for being blessed with such a great soul in my life. And now that I’ve found other people who are not only going through the same thing as myself but who is also open with their stories and struggles that they are overcoming. @hpvoutlet has made me really realize that there is many people who are just like me. Thank you for opening a door to where I fit in and feel normal again.
You can only be happy if you allow yourself to let go of all heartache and regrets and to carry on living life. #LA #Lights #Hpv #Happiness #Peace #Acceptance
Oh wow nice statistic there. It doesn’t make me paranoid at all.
That’s why sex with a condom AND boxers on.
My disease is protecting me.
I trust too much. I fall too damn hard
Better HPV than HIV
In a way its a blessing.
My lesson has been learned.